No progress
there is no progres.... stacked up here. I am lost my direction.... i lost my laptop hard disk, i lost my computer RAM. how it can happen in same time. At time after work i just can see my broken laptop, and my useless computer. I feel realy lonely. just can read my blender book. When my purpose realy close from me. i must stoped again. Problem and problem again, i think problem is very creative. i allways find a new released of problem.
Its ok, i will use my really a little rest time in my work place to learn about design. now i want to design some furniture. i am now confused with how to make an arched box that get narrower on the top. when make it with polygon then smoothed it, the result realy bad, when make it from curve, i don't know how to make the suvace. Here i need to do :
hope find the way soon.
New software design (blender)
Finally at my new job place, i get my new software design. umm... may be i will said build new software, not get.... Its realy hard to build by my self on linux. I must build mesa3d for openGL, but like usually its ask many dependencies. There is many linux distro with complete software, but there is no other linux faster than my Knoppix Rose i think. And i realy loved this linux. This distro is my first love with linux.
Iam talking about blender here. blender is 3d design software, and i think its run smoothly on my Knoppix Rose edition. My knoppix have same speed with my windows, even i think knoppix is faster.
The new chalange is, how to use this software. I used to be know about 3dmax, but this software realy different. Fortunatelly i'v bought blender book about 3 month ago. I realy prepare my transformation to linux.
Start of Freedom ( one step foward)
This is my started creature with linux. its realy hard to make it for me. Different enough with common program like Corel or adobe photoshop. Especialy on make a gradient. But its ok its the price that i must pay for my freedom. What ever it takes, i'v make it works and good. One step foward for me, and its mean so much for me.
Rest And prepare
This is the time... the time to me for realize that i need to prepare for my war on Computer. For my dream. i realize that now is not my time for war.
1.First, i need to have my own official Operating system. Cause now i knew that i can't using
windows XP with out license. Its mean break the law.
2. I must chose my way to hand of that.
3. And i choose
linux for that, cause it free for every one. And just it choise left for me.
4. Some thing free is always not better than some thing you buy so i must pay that with my brain, to thinking. that all i have.
Its mean now i build best
linux purposed for me to play again with
COMPUTER GRAPHIC with confident
. Now there is no linux perfect. Some linux have blender, but realy hard to install gimp or open office. And some thing like that.
Not possible to install all kind of linux distro of course.
GOOD BYE Windows.... i can't buy you even i loved you. Its break my pricipal if i using you with out license. You like a materialistic girl. I have no money for materialistic girl, and also for Windows XP.
Changed, and Finished project.
At last... i have time to finish this project. Finally i change my mind , i'd change my model to nina. Cause realy hard to remember some one who not belong to you any more.
With nina as my model, i can imagine the smile easily, i can imagine the expression easily.
May be its need realy big strugle to make some one you didn't know anymore to draw the expression. may be i will try it latter.
Broken
BROKEN DREAM
This is my Last creation on 3D design, about 1 year ago.But iam realy frustated with that. Cause when i finish to make it, my computer is broken. I lost all of my data. include this creation. And many more my other 3D creation.Its need long times to make it. I feel realy uselessly,frustated,despretion, all i do just ...lost. Its A BROKEN DREAM. A dream to make my own movie 
. I need the best computer. But i have no money. Fortunatelly i'v allready print out the movie screen shot. Even the picture have a little scracth cause rain. You can see the scracth on left side.That is not my effect, that is a scracth.
Just as additional information, I print this picture cause this caracter base on my own face. some of my friend said that its realy look like my face 
. So if you want to see me just look at the picture. Iam so handsome right??? 
METAMORPH
This is the metamophosis of my Project A creature.
first i make the face
then the lips
and the last is eye.
But i make a mistakes. that i am not to focused to eyes.
The most importan on uman caracter is eyes.
Generally people will see the eyes first for uman characters
it was said by the final fantasy characters creator.
i wasn't hear by my self, i hear that from my friend, his name is donny prabowo.
Project A
Project A
This is my first art work on corel. I have allready know corel for long time before, but i used on web design. Now i try to used it on computer art. maybe i allso will post my 3d art design, but it will be a hard work
Cause a smooth 3D effect must be counted exactly.
I draw this picture for 3 days on my leisure time. but i think its not smooth enough. may be i will refine later. mmmm i mean its realy not finish yet
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